{Reader discretion is advised. This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locals or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. Copyright © 2011}
Do you know who you are? No one knows who I am. Well they know what I want them to know. When you don't talk much it builds an eerie aura of mystery. I generally keep to myself and when I need to be social with people I have created a different persona of myself. Around my family I am closer to myself, quite, introverted and I answer most questions with a simple answer. I do talk about token things when needed and that is what I used to survive high school.
You could call me a liar or crazy, but none of the falsehoods I speak of have hurt anyone. I just change how I act around certain people, we all do it. Do you talk the same way with friends that you do with your grandparents? I didn't think so. Well I don't talk to certain groups the same as others, more so when I was younger. No one in the High School I went to has any idea who I really am. I talked about hating school, and I never heard the gossip about anyone.
It's quite nice not knowing about who is effing who or other trivial things. I kept my hobbies to myself and only one person knows the real me. He is a friend I have had for years at first I was shy and unsure about him but came to a sudden realization. He was a lot like me, hell he was like a clone of me. No this isn't a story about how we fell in love. But I do love him like a brother but I have no brother so I don't think I can use that metaphor...
I walked the halls of the school with usually a mean look on my face, generally because I hated it there and after being made fun of in middle school like almost every child I had grown a thick skin. Some people go to drugs or cutting, I went with humor. Albeit self deprecating but that was High School Me, the guy that made fun of himself for laughs and it also stopped others from saying worse things. Because I could say even worse things about myself , does this self defense mechanism make sense? No but it worked. I'm not addicted to drugs, I've never cut myself voluntarily and I have no other suicidal tendencies.
I soon noticed as I got closer to the end of my High School career that my life was boring. It still sort of is but not as bad as back then. Did anyone ever know that I had a long distance phone relationship with a girl I had never met when I was fifteen? Only one person knew and he accepted it. Did anyone know that I had a small harem of online girls that I would talk with and have virtual sex with, a few had even flashed me over web cam and they had never even seen my face.

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